Hello dear fellow travelers,
I’m Ramanaa… film maker by pro… age 46… have a beautiful family … shantha my partner, Dharshini at 18… and swetha at 10 years… are my close friends and also happened to be my daughters…
As a film maker my professional carrier started in the year of 2003… my first directorial venture was THIRUMALAI with vijay and jothika in the lead and was produced by the great K. Balachander sir… in his banner kavithalaya…
The god started showering his blessing toward my life from then … the film was super success… and I started my carrier very successfully… and I followed with my projects SULLAN with Dhanush… AADHI with again vijay and thrisha … like that my life was with full of roses on its way… I earned in lakhs… built a beautiful house and all mobile and immobile asserts… and the life was so smooth… till 2010….
When I was directing my fourth project GUTHIRAI… In that film was in the lead role… produced by the veteran actor Nasser… almost we completed the project and started doing the post production works like dubbing and editing and other…
ONE FINE DAY… why I type that day in capital letters because really it was a fine day… I personally feel.. I’ll tell you the reason later of this letter…
One fine day my sound engineer called me and said to come to the dubbing theater… and I thought it is a regular call and I went to dubbing theater in the morning without knowing the day is going to take a U turn in my life…
The sound engineer said that he saw the full film and the film is very well made… in that my part is particularly extraordinary… but unfortunately the voice of mine is not having consistency from the beginning to the end… he finds some problem while mixing it… so he said that it’s better to re dub the full film once again.. only then my portion will be perfect… I was shocked… why because it very difficult to recreate those emotions again… but he was so adamant in re dubbing the portion… and without choice we started to re dub the film… still problem not ended … after few days he said this present voice is worst than before… I really got wild… and walked out of the recording theater…
I didn’t speak to anyone for few days… one day as a regular visit my sister Sharanya came homewith his husband and while she was leaving to her home she said that Anna… your voice is not like before … why…? Its better you reduce the no of cigarettes you smoke in a day… otherwise it will endup some were… then I seriously given a thought of giving up cigarettes… I normally consume two packets of cigarettes in a day!!!!!!
I didn’t speak to anyone for few days… one day as a regular visit my sister Sharanya came home with his husband and while she was leaving to her home she said that Anna… your voice is not like before … why…? Its better you reduce the no of cigarettes you smoke in a day… otherwise it will end up some were… then I seriously given a thought of giving up cigarettes… I normally consume two packets of cigarettes in a day!!!!!!
I realized later… It was TOO LATE that I took the decision… anyway… better nothing late than never…
Then through one of my friend I met Dr. Raj E.N.T specialist at Apollo FirstMed… and he inspected me and said that he need to take a biopsy in my throat that to in larynx [voice box]… to know the reason for worse voice… I asked why a biopsy…? and he replied calmly it could be the symptom of cancer…
Oh my god… the moment I could not explain in words…. Hope all of you might have experienced..
DARK …. PICH DARK… ALLL AROUND IN MY MIND….
I as a film maker started imagining that all my life is falling in front of me… and went through all the trauma like crying… banging on walls… throwing all god’s photos on the floor…throwing tantrums to others… and all sort of non-senses…. In fact I was not prepared to undergo biopsy test… because strongly believed that my life is going to end as early as possible…
But the time which made me calm and made me to realize that the god has given me a beautiful family… and fantastic friends around so …I should live and take care of them…
Again I went and met Dr. Raj in Apollo and said I’m prepared for biopsy… and he did the procedure … the way he did the procedure was unexplainable… because that was so smooth and painless procedure…
But the result was so painful… The result confirmed thatI am affected by the CANCER…
But the result was so painful… The result confirmed that I am affected by the CANCER…
But this time nothing is falling in front of me… because I was bit seasoned and started accepting the reality…
Dear friends… I sincerely feel that accepting the reality is the first step of recovery… after that by the advice and guidance of Dr. Raj.. I came to know about a great doctor and also a greatest human whom saved a lot of people life…
Dr. Rayappa sir…
The great… great… surgeon…
How should I explain him…? As a doctor…? As a human..? As a friend…? As a elder brother..?
I can say… HE IS A SAVOIUR… I’m not exaggerating… its true… because I have experienced it…
The way he receives the patients… and the time he is taking for diagnosis the issue… and to know their practical problems… and discuss with them without any hurry though he has a tremendous pressure in his profession…
Wow… amazing… that too his smiley explanation itself will cure the issue… the rest is just a formalities…
The very great and important quality of Dr. Rayappa is he will only tells the facts and the needed procedures… no fake hopes… he deals the issue as issue… he never mixes the fact with emotions..
When he said that he needs to remove my voice box… it took time for me to accept the fact… because I have come up to this successful level in my profession is not only because of my knowledge and also because of my communication skills…
My voice was my weapon… I use to face any situation with my commanding voice… but now the doctor says that he is going to remove my voice box… and saying still I can communicate…
I did not believe… I just felt that he is trying to encourage me to undergo the treatment… in that time i have no other choice other than believing him… I accepted to remove my voice box…
A warrior is going to face the war without his weapon…
The procedure was done by Dr. Rayappa… and after 10 days… the miracle happened… yes I got back my voice… yes I started communicating… not the with the same voice like before… but instead of sword I got a sharp chisel…
I have started preparing my mind to become a sculpture instead a warrior to shape my life again with that chisel…
Oh my god… what an experience it was… it opened a new window in my life to pass the new light… of course it was bit difficult to set your mind… But YOU CAN… I did… please believe in you… every part… every cell of the body surely will respond and support to your commends…
Please try to learn to command you mind in OPTIMISTIC WAY…
YOU CAN TALK WITHOUT VOICE BOX…
Because… now I can continuously orate for three hours… I am not joking… if you want friends please come home let us have a chat…
If once Dr. Rayappa says that your problem can be treated… that’s it… it is a word…
YOU WILL BE SAVED…
He really understand the financial pressure of the patient … his family support and other difficulties of the patient and treating them accordingly without leaving them… he is a living god..
I was admitted, treated and returned home within 25 days… those days were like you are at home with close friend around… Such a beautiful hospital with latest equipment and a great staffs in a hygienic condition..
In my experience … The every penny you spend is worth in Apollo…
My recovery was fast than what expected… but you can’t expect any magic to happen … you need to have patience… it will take the needed time to recover according to your issues and conditions…
Most importantly your willpower to fight against your issue… will surly make the difference..
That’s the costliest medicine, which you can’t buy in any pharmacy anywhere in the world…
According to me now I strongly believe that I am totally out of cancer… I just lived with cancer… that’s all…
Previously in this letter i said it was a FINE DAY… yes.. yes… The day I came to know that I was affected by cancer…
Yes… from that day only I learned to meet the realities in life … it made me grounded… it made to understand the fellow human being… it thought me the difference between real and fake… it thought me simplicity… most importantly thought me to love others…
I am leading a peaceful life… and I will…
WHERE IS A WILL… THERE IS A WAY…
I am proudly and happy to say I’m back to my normal life… and shortly starting my new project soon with leading stars in it … the title of the film is…
SEITHIKAL THODARGINRENA( செய்திகள்தொடர்கின்றன…)
That’s because of the following humans was with me in my tough times…
1. Dr.Rayappa – Surgeon
2. Dr. Raj – E.N.T
3. Dr. Babuji – Anaesthetist
And other Apollo staffs whom taken care of me….
THANKS TO ALL.. AND APOLLO SPECIALITY CANCER INSTITUTE…
With a special thanks to my sweet wife shantha… my two angels … Dharshini and swetha… and all my friends…
LOVE YOU ALL…
LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL……
With thanks…
Ramanaa
